So I've Stopped Eating

So I've stopped eating.
I haven't owned my own shampoo in 5 weeks.
I've run out of gas in the middle of state street TWICE.
I go to school full time, AND I work 30 hours a week.
I'm pretty sure Collections has me on speed dial.

Yet I still cant pay my bills. I just cant. I literally have 7 cents in my bank account. How is anyone else surviving?? I honestly don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I just needed to vent for a second.

All emotional pain lasts for 12 minutes.

Anything longer than that is self inflicted. 

I read once that if we can separate ourselves from our minds, and watch its craziness, from the outside looking in, then we are no longer prisoner to our own bodies. 

I try it all the time, but I have yet to be able think that way. 

Am I Alone, Here?

So, I don't really like music.
And its weird cause everyone I know is like "Oh my heck music is my life", etc.
And then here I am, I don't know any bands, I don't play any instruments, nor do I want to learn, I have absolutely no idea how to pronounce "Bon Iver", I don't know any songs, the only concert I've ever been to was Neon Trees, and I was way too sweaty to even enjoy any of it.
When people ask me what type of music I listen to, I'm always like, "Oh, uhh, whatever is on the radio?". Yeah.
So my question here is, I am alone? Is there anyone else out there that music doesn't really play a role in their life?
Thank you, Amen.
Also I really like this picture:

Keep Going

"If you're going through hell, keep going." -Winston Churchill 

Not My Idol

I think an important part of growing up is finding people who you want to be like. 
An even more important part though, I feel, is finding people you will NEVER want to be like. 
Seeing both ends of the spectrum is really important in finding who you are. 
The following are people I hope I never even resemble in any aspect.
Or, I would rather die than become like them. 

         1. Zooey Deschanel -mostly because of this quote:

“Being tender and open is beautiful. As a woman, I feel continually shhh’ed. Too sensitive. Too mushy. Too wishy washy. Blah blah. Don’t let someone steal your tenderness. Don’t allow the coldness and fear of others to tarnish your perfectly vulnerable beating heart. Nothing is more powerful than allowing yourself to truly be affected by things. Whether it’s a song, a stranger, a mountain, a rain drop, a tea kettle, an article, a sentence, a footstep…feel it all – look around you. All of this is for you. Take it and have gratitude. Give it and feel love.”

Being tender is beautiful?? Come on woman, your making the rest of us look bad. When I grow up I don't want to be viewed as someone who is "beautifully sensitive", or is moved by a freakin' tea kettle, I wanna be known for being strong and intelligent and good at what I do. NOT my "vulnerable heart". 

        2. My Aunt - and because this is a public blog, I wont get specific as to which side of the fam, or the name of said person. 

My aunt is one of those moms who you can just tell has spent one too many days in the dark, only talking to her crying infant. I mean, she SUCKS at talking to anyone over the age of 3. And she has forgotten all about what normal adults talk about, because her topic of conversation are usually diaper rash and her child learning the words of his body parts.... Yeah. 

       3. Mitt Romney

Look at that face, whats not to hate? But really, he is so incredibly tied to his religion that he cant see any other point of view. He thinks that everyone who doesnt think exactly like him is wrong, he's brainwashed. That kind of narrow-mindedness will get you into some serious trouble, and keep you from going places in life. 

Just Thought You Should Know

Today I went to Lagoon.
I went on Colossus for the first time, and passed out in the middle of the roller coaster.
When the ride ended, I was sitting unconscious in the chair.

Its quite funny, if you think about it.

Eh eh??

1. Life is too short to live with regrets.
2. Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.
3. You only get one life, but if you live it right, one is enough. 
4. Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. 
5. You only live once. A.K.A, YOLO. 

Any or all of the above reason are why I'm buying a motorcycle.